Depression

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hi, I've had depression for sometime and take anti depressants which have been working fairly well.

Theres this thing though that I can never explain enough to anybody, they never seem to believe me or talk about it with me.

It's like theres something in my head, a guy, who puts thoughts into my head and makes me do stuff that I dont want to do. I dont actually here his voice though, it's like his mind is connected with mine and thats how he puts the bad thoughts into my head.
Sometimes (although not so much since the anti depressants) I can see him as well, he'll just stand in the room I'm in and watch me. Usual it's just when I'm alone now, he used to motion to me with his hands if he wanted me to do something. I could describe the way he looks and I know he can't talk to me using a voice because he has no facial features at all.

For ages I couldn't tell anyone because he wouldn't let me, if I did I'd have to hurt myself really badly. It's not quite so bad anymore, but he's still in my head.

I still cut myself regularly and also am having great trouble with food, starving myself or binging/purging.

I need to know what to do about it. The psychologist I see hasn't mentioned anything about this in ages (I have difficulty talking to him) and the last phsichiatrist I seen only mentioned it twice and I've never seen her again because they dont think I need to see her.

I've tried to self diagnose myself through looking up everything on the internet, the closest I can find is Borderline but also some of the symptons of MPD and Dissasociative also seemed familiar to my personality.

I'd be greatful of any help.

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My daughter was seeing what she called "shadow people" and they were telling her to hurt herself and others. She was admitted to a local mental health hospital where she was diagnosed as having major depression w/physcosis. The doctors there put her on zyprexa, which caused her to have serious weight gain.(and the weight didn't help her depression.)then they gave her Seriquel, and it has been her lifesaver. I would suggest you find a good psyhciatrist, and also a counsler, to help you work thru these voices. Good luck. Shannon
[quote] hi, I've had depression for sometime and take anti depressants which have been working fairly well.

Theres this thing though that I can never explain enough to anybody, they never seem to believe me or talk about it with me... [/quote]